Christmas now …

I feel as though I’ve finally come to terms with the holidays–something I struggled with for years, trying to make certain every present and plan was perfect-as-can-be and every family and friend was treated with the best Christmas gift ever … so grateful for the perspective that comes with the years. What I had always desired was inside me all along.

Christmas at Midlife
Mary Anne Perrone

I am no longer waiting for a special occasion; I burn the best candles on ordinary days.
I am no longer waiting for the house to be clean; I fill it with people who understand that even dust is Sacred.

I am no longer waiting for everyone to understand me; It’s just not their task
I am no longer waiting for the perfect children; my children have their own names that burn as brightly as any star.
I am no longer waiting for the other shoe to drop; It already did, and I survived.

I am no longer waiting for the time to be right; the time is always now.
I am no longer waiting for the mate who will complete me; I am grateful to be so warmly, tenderly held.
I am no longer waiting for a quiet moment; my heart can be stilled whenever it is called.
I am no longer waiting for the world to be at peace; I unclench my grasp and breathe peace in and out.

I am no longer waiting to do something great; being awake to carry my grain of sand is enough.
I am no longer waiting to be recognized; I know that I dance in a holy circle.
I am no longer waiting for Forgiveness. I believe, I Believe.

August gifts & graces

Ikea cubbies ♥ blueberries, hand-picked ♥ a blank page ♥ on the road ♥ quiet time ♥ Little House Wayside ♥ home joy daresweet home ♥ meditation ♥ Pioneer Girl ♥ lake waves ♥ resort town shopping ♥ time to unwind ♥ hope chest ♥ Mom’s pearl ♥ pocket meadow ♥ my heart ♥ favorite shirt, soft & worn ♥ roses yellow, pink, red ♥ anonymous black cat ♥ mules with lime ♥ dad’s wedding band ♥ showing off the girls ♥ driving Miss Daisies ♥ role reversal ♥ purse lining ♥ Eleanor & Park ♥ this is my symphony ♥ serving ♥ broken, but mended ♥ highway driving ♥ sunglasses ♥ lamplight ♥ this old house ♥ creaks, aches, pains ♥ walking Mr. Buddy ♥ willow branches ♥ rock-rock ♥ rose petals ♥ a teen’s heart ♥ love without hope ♥ planner fun ♥ new pretties ♥ retirement ♥ starting school ♥ two bitty babies ♥ Cat’s Meow houses ♥ time left ♥ Little J ♥ Big J ♥ we made it

July gifts and graces

July joy darea scrappy black cat ♥ restoring order ♥ put-together & stylin’ ♥ morning prayer ♥ Miss Anna Pie ♥ baby on the move ♥ vote ♥ Fr. John ♥ fresh raspberries & cherries ♥ blue sky smilin’ at me ♥ this old dog ♥ laughing family ♥ try a new approach ♥ mid-life ♥ life’s work vs. life’s love ♥ stepping in ♥ homemade strawberry jam ♥ iced tea ♥ I never promised you a rose garden ♥ meadow blooming ♥ summer sun ♥ memories of a happy lab ♥ garden stepping stones ♥ garden haiku boulders ♥ weeping willow ♥ kitchen blinds ♥ detach ♥ soften ♥ singing with baby ♥ old hymns remembered ♥ soft molasses cookies ♥ this is my symphony ♥ just a glimpse ♥ summer dusk ♥ a tough old broad ♥ drifting away ♥ under my heart ♥ retirement in sight ♥ snapping green beans ♥ newly dripped coffee ♥ tussy mussy from the meadow ♥ my corner ♥ headspace ♥ new kids new year just around the corner ♥ morning sunshine ♥ my inventory ♥ making sense ♥ garden magic ♥ Raffi radio ♥ squeals of delight ♥ making it right ♥ standing on my own two feet ♥ life’s disappointments

* thanks to Ann Voskamp’s Joy Dare 

June gifts and graces

A rainy day ♥ summer stretching for months ♥ a scruffy black cat ♥ live a good story ♥ “You’re strong at the broken places”* ♥ “If wJune joy daree own the story we can write the ending”** ♥ lazy summer reading ♥ closets, rearranged ♥ diving ducks ♥ just me & my house ♥ kibbeh & hummus ♥ farm road pastel ♥ a full heart ♥  BBQ smokin’ on the grill ♥ Tory Burch ♥ precious baby girl ♥ addiction ♥ lazy river water ♥ a hard head, stubborn ♥ dog-tired ♥ out of my comfort zone ♥ fireflies ♥ summer candle light ♥ hard memories ♥ wine & good conversation ♥ ducks in a pond ♥ soft & silky baby blanket ♥ my nest is best ♥ Denice’s Day ♥ line-dried sheets ♥ gauzy curtains, billowing ♥ field of hay ♥ two-year-old Dad ♥ stair-stepped Scheffts ♥ little Buddy dog ♥ peanut butter & jelly ♥ strawberry shortcake ♥ baby’s finger dimples ♥ sounds of summer

* Karen White
** Brene Brown

May gifts and graces

G & T, just like the queMay joy dareen ♥ sweet & tangy ribs ♥ high school musical playbill ♥ sheets on the line ♥ head rubs ♥ rain showers on a tilled garden ♥ “I missed you” ♥ Dreaming Tree ♥ if I had my life to live over again ♥ built on nothing less ♥ black cat “hiding” ♥ lilacs and lilies-of-the-valley ♥ unconditional love ♥ a legacy ♥ pen & paper ♥ Bigby’s, hand-delivered ♥ hands to work; hearts to God ♥ nesting ♥ bare kitchen counters gleaming ♥ never give up ♥ Passion Planner ♥ salsa–hot & spicey ♥ garden reno ♥ the yard, neat & tidy ♥ a tiny rocker ♥ sweet serenity of books ♥ manicotti ♥ last summer’s raspberries ♥ fur babies ♥ tiny dimpled fingers ♥ serving in a sea of red ♥ small food ♥ the courage to change ♥ turn the planner page ♥ sweet sweater ♥ vaulted arches, nighttime sky ♥ orange flash of an oriole ♥ carrot mango ginger juice ♥ afirmations